I know I’m not supposed to feel guilty, but I do.
When we were told that the baby I’m carrying would have severe disabilities, we knew abortion was an option but didn’t seriously consider it. This was our baby, no matter what.
But that choice won’t just affect my husband and I. It will also affect our daughter.
Our decision to keep this baby, to support in every way we possibly can, and love it forever means that our first daughter will never have the childhood we envisioned for her.
I feel like we’re stealing her childhood from her.
The internet is full of beautiful stories of the siblings of people with disabilities. I’ve been reading them when I can’t sleep, which is a lot lately. I find solace in them.
But I know our daughter, my husband, and I will have to make sacrifices. My husband and I made that choice together. Our daughter will have to live with our decision.
I hope one day she’ll be happy to take on that responsibility when we’re no longer able to.