I hate it.
I hate that I have to know what it is.
I hate that I have to use it more and more every day.
I hate that I actually own this after “renting for two years” through my insurance company.
I hate that it tends to break and is no longer covered once you own it and the vicious cycle starts again.
I hate having to clean it after it’s used.
I hate that I have a favorite tip to use. (The soft one that won’t knock her teeth out during a struggle)
I hate hearing it.
I hate hearing it in my sleep.
I hate having to sleep with one ear cocked, just incase.
I hate that she sees me cry every time I have to use it.
I hate knowing I have the strength of three men when I have to hold her down while using it.
I hate knowing of the silence, seconds before she starts to choke and I need this.
I hate mom’s that only have to use a blue bulb sucker.
I hate mom’s who think the blue bulb sucker is violent.
I hate that sometimes I grateful for this machine over the bulb bulb sucker, because those things SUCK!
moms, I don’t hate you I just wish I had my ignorance back…